fire?!

So my roommates charger to her computer decided to randomly combust and set my other roommates slipper on fire. very scary when you realize every thing around the slipper it very flammable. All you hear is a small pop and sizzle then suddenly flames spouting from the heel of a slipper luckily it was put out quickly even if a computer was dropped in the process. Heart attack is all I can say.

Well now what?

So...its the new year, but it still feels the same as last year, well I've felt this way for a while now but hopefully this new year will change into something different.

humpf

Damn it! I am not 16 grrr stop mistaking my for a damn teenager... I'm in college for crying out loud!! Please some one other than some little 15 year old kids try to pick me up this is getting a little ridiculous.

GRRRR

Shitty computer deletes my work! GRRRR... oh well now I've vented. I swear its the Zombies taking over thats' why technology is starting to turn on us and think for itself.... Ok, so now I've vented.

Time Flies...

It's strange how time flies. One moment it seems as if your just graduated high school and the next your flying through college. It's been forever since I last posted something on here, I kept meaning to but every time I thought about it I either got distracted or lazy. In fact I have been extremely lazy this month and have gotten far behind in my work. It's times like this that I question whether I have the drive to stay in school, I mean I love my subject don't get me wrong, it's just sometimes I wish I could go straight into my field of work, sorta like an apprenticeship. Then I remember that in today's society we cannot get anywhere without a college degree, things would be easier if we could live lives like in books.

Rent

Ok so a little while ago I was indifferent to my roommate but I just got a call from our landlady and now I'm pissed. Pay your f***in' rent or you will be kicked out.

Caring?

I realized yesterday that I have moved beyond caring about what is going on in my apartment. That I no longer care what my roommates are doing and that even if they annoy me sometimes it really doesn't matter. As long as I remain aloof it's a good because in my own little world no one can touch me, unless I let them in. I have to look out for myself that is the only way to get by in this world, sure its great to talk to people but in the end the one you have to look out for the most is yourself otherwise you'll have no way of helping others. I know this may sound a bit cruel but I don't even have care enough to care about some of the people I know. Sure I'll say oh that's sad or too bad that had to happen but I know in the back of my mind that I really don't care, but its' not like I'm annoyed either.... I'm indifferent. Maybe I'm just tired.... Tired of living up to peoples' expectations, tired of trying to be friends with people who ignore you, tired of listening to petty gossip (some of which I admit I have taken part in). Lets all start over, then maybe I can show you the real me. No guarantee you'll like it, after all I'm not some infomercial. I know you think I sound 3mo now but I don't care...I'm just releasing my mind in the only way I have left.